Thursday, September 01, 2005


There is a reason they used to call bi-polar disorder "manic depressive disorder". The manic part, which for me is worse by far than the depression, has hit me today. I cannot think properly, I cannot rest, and I want to do stupid shit. My options are to sit here and tough it out, or go out and be impulsive. I don't like either option really. I have been in an open air prison for a couple of years, and don't like being confined anyway. The other option though is how I have gotten into trouble everytime in my life. Impulsiveness--drink--get angry--get violent--get arrested--etc...

Piss off bi-polar disorder, with your stoopid fluctuations!

Why the fuck couldn't I have been born schizotypal or something EASY to treat? Now you're wondering, what's schizotypal? Go here and become learned...
Anyway, saturday is the gathering of the nerds at Contagions' and Ktrevas' house. I am looking forward to playing with my friends, and hopefully not having to grapple with anything.

Peace, love, happiness, and serenity of purpose.


James 1:12, Blessed is the man who endures trial, for when he has stood the test he will receive the crown of life which God has promised to those who love him.